Some green drawings with a stencilled R
a bit of blue; some black; a squiggle or two
light green pale green forest green cross-hatch
don't think so much about it; The Fear:
and loneliness : the School for Idiots.
Drawn from Memory: The Woods
robust black lines; double arrows
putting up with Winter
prayers for normal weather for whispers for fog
for stills for stays for stamps for leaves
up the hill to Armstrong Woods; about 2.1 miles
in SF: timesheets due
phone calls of KK3 were taken and delivered
KK3 in 25E x2861 10:00 25W x2831
need time line
phones: Osler; Lippetz
Pitney Bowes
get doc to Rhonda J
brother Frank
Peach Tea
Casserole/tuna
Pugliese bread
channel surfer
too negatively self-effacing
Wanted:
night riders
heavy snuggling
32-33 waist -- 35/36 inseam
preference for artistic clutter
loves washing dishes;
adorable would be just about perfect
soft cotton sweatshirts
agreeing - favorably
in SF: the least important day seems important --
all vapid
beauty about me.
he says you're too negatively self-effacing
indescribably delicious I say he is
ferocious -- ly
boring with compulsive personality
49, basically opinionated
difficult to "get"
tantrum prone
essentially a letter of
the alphabet
don't go backwards in books
do I or does my body remember everyone
everywhere
taking delight in despair --
shoots & sprouts --
blackberry fences --
looking at vast
space way in back
yet to be used
tempered
excitement
contained
composite heap
compost heap
no bones or milk
goofy grins
all over the place
always trying to remember
Basic structures will remain:
Cabins
larger dining hall
bold movements
scaled to the woods
use a similar architectural scheme --
an expansion
almost homage
to the original designers and layout of the place
cutting the back lawn
took all morning --
grass still dew --
red lawn mower
discover a power drive
when work's half-done
many names to begin
many others waiting
your name here
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O Please Peter:
lull him nuzzle him lumbar
lull him liquid luscious loom
back to home lounge Lethe he
Na Leethe Bhi
O Peter Please:
pleasing Peter with a quarter
with a dollar with a shower full
of creamy (having) giggles & thigh
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having your way with Mr. Gray
Goodbye to the days that were
Goodbye to the night
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mind everywhere
playing briefly
upon her discovery
Calliope sniffed
her food
looked keenly intent around
for you
She was the oldest and wisest of the Muses.
To refer back
What a Warm
& Willing Participant
He Proved
looking shocked
then answering always
with a question
then all that hubbub about
opening a
can of worms
& in an odd
way remained in
my suit --
with agreement --
yes - yes
I'll - accept
that - Steve
perfect - each
word - each
time - he
spoke - my
name
like that --
Briefly in love and through a huge
revision of tears
his hair's cut
as close as mine
fuzzy
French Photographers
express the unsayable
with flashlights
there must be a story
about closing the gate on me
even as I approached and said:
I or him or you
say or he said I said
they said
difficult groves of bamboo
a treacherous weed to a
serious gardner
best left subdued &
shadowy jade
bamboo
crying by the pool
the stream flows down the slope
in winter
with fury
winter deep
water in winter
living
there
with a
purpose
&
place
read Pindar
the power of language
to express whatever we please
or is that Pinter
I can't be sure
ooo's and aahhh's
in walks
R --
phone rings --
he's home --
wish him
happy birthday
Tantra --
he says
I say --
o please --
it's more
than -- that
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Linear Confusion
Tuesday
the tender terrible lies
aches & complaints
& tonight Avalo is frisky
on the Blue
trisecting angle; a simple
example of implicit faith
words and a single image
Pantone 3 in 1 pen
a self-defeating argument
send MWelles $50 - due Tuesday
where are my shoes
in need of adventure
I am not a role model
Bamboo Beware
how is October possible
October chill in the Air
we just don't know how
to talk to our son
bamboo doors
bamboo windows
bamboo up close
warm gloves
scarves or mittens
mittens & scarves
painting bamboo with Pantone pens
the wind is about to rise
describing circles in water
Fencing
you can't play with his emotions
thrust into him warrior-like
wars in one's soul
bamboo & redwood
Mason with his fingers loved
pig-headed
like his father
a hundred years ago
stubborn
constrain someone from
doing something
he'll never
amount
to nothin'
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wolves
wabbits
cats galore
consider someone or
something
get paperclips
consult with someone
about something
call Sally & Kirsten --
Sally in Seattle
paint that canvas maroon
write Adam -- about
Tennesse Williams or is it
William Carlos Williams
an autumn moment
autumnal shades
walnuts
filberts
thanksgiving
captain kangaroo
turkey
macy's day parade
fall
red
change
Thomas Wolfe
assassination
Opera Robert Ashley:
sometimes in chanting
monks will land upon
a note
stop an experience
stop an experience from happening?
a place
a person
rhapsodize memory
in imagination
stopping for
Melisma
gives the soul
its reason
for being
the nature of Acedia
between
gravity & grace
that time
around 3 to 5
in the afternoon
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Our Town
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feasible
sizable
fear
listen to Ashley's
perfect lives
in the kitchen
bathing in shower
soap everywhere
Our Town
on
TV
"music
come into the world
to
give pleasure"
"art thou weary"
"art thou languid"
"isn't the moonlight
terrible"
common sense
in syncopation
pomegrante moon
apple moon
pumpkin moon
nervous: moon
the O's of October
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abrupt changes
Balance:
strangers. nothing all together
but naked or nude or terror or
tears or healthy or heat or heart
or afraid or books
news raps:
words & phantasies and emotions
& things like that
to figure out
chased by an angel in army boots
construction outside
crews rebuilding the Civic Center
planning for 1998
2000 you'll be 54
a mere 4 years
a mirrored life --
memory's a photocopy of the
original
mother gibbs
they're going --
eternal where?
one dare not whisper
for fear of missing
a word --
a hush & then
the evening stars:
when does this feeling
go away : feeling strange
here
legacies
grants
powers of attorney
who will take care of me:
Fear
50/50 turning 50
watching
My Neighbor Totoro
old enough to be the president
or as old as Bill Clinton
without a career
banging bursts of drums
beauty over bridges
brave girls shy boys
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billie holiday
was more functional
than you are
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A swirl of negative
self-effacing words
says a haunted
Mason Waller:
tempting me
hoping for tears
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bathtub boys
who sincerely invite
the sound of your voice
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fresh first air
chill early blinded by
ghosts & acorns
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hating so deep he sobs
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Charles always coy when he
wants something from me, says:
If you're ever lost on Mt Shasta should I phone?
---- email Robert: we all miss you. I think Mason the most
call everyone for Sunday
pretend to be curious about sex
when the deeper doubts occur
expiate dreams
feelin' something special
in the air
Juliet Prowse on TV
Paseo Robles
where the man shines by
attracting the woman
in dance
Smoothely
the couple in stripes
ballroom dancing as an olympic sport
stone bodies
torn bodies
taped bodies
under plastic
beauty pinned
held
perfect
chaos
formulas
the Catharsis of 1996.
visual
how
activated
placed
raw exhibition looms -- hot
sensational show of
eager to share wonder
Michael K
gets distant
when he gets closest
Giotto
is the conclusion
of a long effort: blue
the magnificent chant
of November: close before
December
notice the O's
the sculupted R's
the glorious U's
would you
help me on
with my coat?
the cold is yet to penetrate
his sleep deepens
darkens opens
-- Jeff Wietor
